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I always wonder myself as every jobs I could possibly think off,well at least some of them that interest me a lot.For me,creating and achieving a success in our life even if its small is really meaningful to me.

You know;

If I can act properly,I would be an actor
If I have a good voice,I would be a singer
If I have the look,I would be a model (Nah,scrap this)
If I have good body shape,I would be an athlete
If I have all those groovy moves,I would be a dancer
If I have a chef mastery skills..well of course I be a chef

So many "If" , Yet so little chance to get.
But lucky,I am very grateful to God that I am a determined person.
And I found just a thing that suits me,Designer.

Many of you (reader), (well that is if there is one :/) might wanna know why all those jobs interest me.Well cuz those are the things I found hard to get.But God Will,maybe I can achieve it with a bit of effort :)

1.Actor - I always like to act even so many might not see it.Let just call it as a hidden talent of mine.I can act but only if it was with myself or with few closed friends or family.I always find it hard to start a conversation with a stranger ( Yes,Im telling you the truth). But when you know me,you might not think of me that way.But sincerely I am having trouble in this matter.Well I can see that there's plenty of people that are the same just like I am.So yea.Well I always have this nervous when I want to talk infront of people.Thus,making it hard for me to actually speak something.Sometimes,when the adrenaline start pumping,I lost everything that I currently thinking of that time.For example; When I have a public speaking in front of many people.I have the guts,I have the ideas,I can remember the script very well and I'm willing to come forward.But when I'm going to start my speech,I just seems lost.Sigh*

2.Singer - Well singing have always being a dream of everyone.Well even if its not people tend to sing whenever there's a free time.Well sometimes you even sing without you realize it.Many of us sing in the bathroom whenever we're in the toilet.Either you taking a shower,nature call or taking a dump,we will eventually sing along lol.Well I always inspired by people who sang on Youtube and others video streaming website and how I wish I could have voice like any of them.Well its not that I'm saying I'm not grateful of what I have.I do and I really felt grateful about it but..if only.Owh yea btw,I dont care about what people think and I just sing even if they keep saying stfu! your voice is like _____ (Well,lets leave that part for you to think what people in this world can actually think and say to fit that blank)

3.Model - Haha model? That was just purely a joke.I wouldn't think that I will have any opportunities in that.Im born imperfect (Is that another word of "not perfect"? o.O). Well everyone is. I'm not actually call myself as good looking or anything. Wanna know my little dirty secrets? - I wish my hair would be straight and soft like all those asians from korea,japanese or chinese.I wish that I have a good body shape and with all those muscles(lol).I wish my skin face are soft,tender and acne free (Owh yea,maybe a bit of some mixture from those asians essence(?) - I forgot how that essence actually spells -.-).But thats that,It just some wishes.

4.Athlete - Being someone who's active in sports is always my dream.Yeah maybe everyone think I'm passive in sports cuz truth is I have low self esteem & confidence due to the fact that I'm chubby bahh fat. I always wish to try play basketball or cycling or tennis or badminton.I admit that I dont like football or soccer. Well how I wish I am. But because of Im fat,thats what keep holding me back.

5.Dancer - Another hidden talent of mine (Hohoho ^0^) Well nah,not a talent but uhh maybe my free time hobby.People might not realize this cuz I tend to keep this to myself as an exercise with freelance choreography (lol homemade). But yeah,I really like to dance but again in this cruel world,when people see a fat boy dancing they mostly with bash you till you hate yourself ^^ Besides,without actually any experience in dancing,people might just see me as doing a joke.Sad eh? But thats life.

6.Chef - What?! A chef? Lol! Hey,I once made a "Bimbimbap" - A korean mixed rich and its delicious! So yeah,don't think I don't know anything about cooking okay ? Well nowadays,the chefs are mostly boys lol cuz the girls cant keep up with our performance.Talk about good handjobs,we boys pawn you girls :D