:OMG

I have this one disease.
I don't know if it can be cure or not.
And I don't know if I can survive or not.
I'm ... sorry ...

BUT SERIOUSLY I CAN'T START A DAMN CONVERSATION WITH STRANGERS IN REAL LIFE!
WTF WEI!
You know, I know there's actually a lot of people in this world suffering from this disease.
And I have to say I kindda shocked (LOL)
I mean, I thought I'm the only one who suffer this.
Somehow I think I have the chronic one.
Cuz:

People look me as someone who's doesn't talk much

(when I'm not!)

People think me as someone who is sombong

(snobbish? conceited?) (WHEN I'M NOT)

The other day I went out with a friend of my sister and he said ;

"Why you didn't talk? Don't know what to say?"
And with head down I said- "Yeah.."
OMG I felt really ashamed at that time =.=

I kindda have a hard time to find topics
And whenever I want to try to start a conversation, I mostly will be in hesitation.
And when I did start, he/she doesn't hear what I say =.=
And when he/she asked;

"What did you say?"
I replied - "Nothing.."

Seriously,I love to make friends.But I'm not good with the talk except if we already know each others or youre my families or friends.But when you know me better, mostly people will think of me the other way around.Cuz seriously,ask everyone who knows me,they mostly will say ;
"Eh are you sure he didn't talk much and not friendly? o.O"

But sometimes,it just go with the flow and I don't have trouble at all.
Weird huh?