:OMG

Truth is,
I'm still going to stand with decision
that I'm going to be single till I get to the end of 20.
By mid 30 only will I think about marriage.
Well,tbh, my mum said its a good decision.
Somehow,I'm sorta shocked but I'm glad that my mum support me.
Its not anything.
Its just that I want everything to be stable
especially financially.
Maybe when the day come that I finally have my own castle,
I find my queen or if its a fate that I'll be single till I'm old,
why not?

But thing is,
its sad actually cause
when youre dead,no one there for you.
You dont have any kids to be there by your side.
Maybe,just maybe
If there (the malay said jodoh) ,I want to have my own family too.
Even if by the end,my wife decided to leave me with the kids
and she found a new guy,ahh who cares about her,
I believe that,my kids are everything to me by that time.

And why the hell I'm talking about my future?
And kids and marriage and my life plan?
Who knows.

Maybe I just dont feel anyone want to be in a relationship
with me or maybe I'm just not into it
cause I dont feel anything,I mean love.
I dont feel the so called sparks or whatever.
Lol sounds rather corny stuffs.

After what I've gone through before.