Saturday, October 29, 2011

But life isnt as easy as it may sounds or seems like. It wasnt and wouldnt be called life if there's no difficulties and easiness. But how long a person can survive and bear with it is a different story. A person doesnt just put an end to his life without a valid reason. Some people feel burdened by pain, sorrow, loneliness, sadness, stresses, pressures; be it, anything. Though, I didnt say that putting an end to your life is a good idea nor does it bring any good, but sometimes I do feel like one.

Before you stereotype shallow minded people thinking that I am suicidal, I wasnt serious. In actual fact, what I'm trying to say is that how I wish things turned out to be different or how I wish I can escape from it. Everyone want to escape from problems, who doesnt. It takes courage to face problems. Not little, a sum of it.

I have a life and also a fate. Destined by my god, I believe. But my fate is mysterious, so does my life. No one will understand unless they're in my shoes which not in a million years,not forever they will be. Because we born differently and we faced different problems daily that only ourselves would understand.

My fate; where best friends never keep promises, where people who you trust is untrustworthy, where good people are actually the bad guys, where people who I believe to be the person I wanted the most, left me with reasons.

My life; where I feel bored of what I do quickly, where I hate myself, my life and this world, where parents arent the supportive type, where family keep on fighting and lost respect to each others, where friends doesnt see my sorrow, and there is just too much to say.

I wish to run away, to somewhere deserted or somewhere where people doesnt know anything about me. To be independent, to be able to live by myself, to forget, to strive for my future.

Right now, all I can see is endless, lifeless, and uselessness. I see a rather blurry future which I cant describe.

12:54 AM

Shout out loud!